Well, I went to Round 2 Auditions today..
They picked really hard cuts (parts of each song that we had to sing)
and everyone around me was insanely good.
But, I did what I could.. didn’t sound super lovely…
and I consider it amazing even getting into round 2. 
We’ll see what happens.
Today is “To Write Love On Her Arms” Day. To Write Love On Her Arms is an organization that fights against Depression, Self-Abuse, and Suicide. So I wrote love on my arm and had my friends write it as well.
Which brings me to my story… I asked this boy in my yearbook class to write love on my arm and he asked why, so I explained what it was for and such. Well, he said “Love just leads to more pain.” Of course, I got defensive about it.. and explained that not all love leads to pain.. he said “wait til your boyfriend breaks up with you and you’ll see!” Well, I really don’t see Matt leaving me.. but, if he did.. sure, it would suck… REALLY BAD.. but I’d find someway to be happy. But, not all love leads to pain.. not all love leads to one leaving the other, and it is sad that people think that way. Very sad. But, love is not the subject here. Happiness is.
Happiness comes from having the right attitude. If you say your day is going to go well, then it will. If you keep that attitude no matter what.. you will automatically find the brightside of the day. If you look at life with a positive perspective, you will find the best things in life and it will keep you positive that everything will be okay in the end. That’s why I say, to be happy, you must think happy. Think your life will be good, even through the bad things and it will. Keep in mind that everything happens for a reason.. you will go through bad things and trials… but, it will all teach you a lesson and help you out later in life. I promise.
Dear Teenage Girls,
I know you want to be happy. To you, happiness would be getting that one guy that you’ve always dreamed about. The one that cares about you, loves you, and wants only you… forever. Well, I’ve got news for you. That guy is out there. But, you won’t get him by searching. And you won’t get him by carrying yourself the way that a lot of you do. Be modest. All those gross boys that see you showing a bunch of skin everyday just don’ t deserve it. So, don’t give it to them. Save yourself. All of yourself for that one special boy that you will be with for the rest of your life. Don’t you think he deserves you most? Take it from me. I’m a virgin and plan to remain that way until I am officially married. There will be no exceptions. No matter what. I’m just telling you… don’t walk around showing off your body to every boy in the hallway and school or wherever. They don’t deserve that. You won’t find happiness from attention. And you most likely won’t find that kind of happiness by searching for it. Learn to be content and learn about who you are…. make yourself a better person. And that special boy will find you. And it’ll be worth it. I promise.
<3
Wow, talk about long time, no talk! I haven’t posted on here since January. So many things are different about my life. No more Kevin, we broke up last March. But, broken hearts have been mended and all is well. I have gained a lovely boy in my life.. one that I had been waiting for for about 5 or 6 years, to be exact. He’s my brother’s best friend and I’ve liked him for as long as I can remember him being around. We were also very close friends before we started dating. I really couldn’t ask for a better boyfriend. I’m serious. He’s quite the amazing boy.
I’m now a Senior and loving it. This year has been pretty eventful. I have a lovely group of friends I hang out with at school on a daily basis.. they are quite incredible.
Really, I’m just insanely thankful for the people in my life and I am extremely happy with how my life is going these days. I thank God for all of it, of course.
And thank you to the Veterans and soldiers who fight for our freedoms everyday.
Today is inaguration day. As against Obama I was before today, now, I am going to support him and respect him as my president. I will research him and find things I do like about him.
All I’m saying is, I hope he brings the change he says he is going to bring, and I hope its what the country needs. I am putting my support in him, but I will forever support Bush.
Atleast today is historic.
I am in my yearbook class. We always listen to slow, sweet sounding songs in here.
makes me miss kevin.
cause i never get to see him anymore. i kinda take him for granted.
well, on a happier note, i’m halfway through Breaking Dawn.
loooooove.
I actually have many new years resolutions.
1. Not do things I know I shouldn’t.
2. Become confident with myself.
3. Be sunshine again.
4. Decide what I want to do with my life.
5. Be appreciated.
6. Read more books.
7. Mend old relationships.
8. Focus on the good things in life.
9. Laugh at myself.
10. Be happy.
Life lately. Well, it’s been consumed by many things. Simple things. Like church, I was in a play and I was Mary. I just thought of it as just another christmas play. But, when I was there, playing Mary, I could just feel what she must have. It was a very wierd yet eyeopening kind of moment. Feeling as faithful as Mary was then, although, I know I am no where close. Anyways, other than that, I have been reading the Twilight series by Stephenie Meyer. Even though, I was completely opposed to anything that had to do with it, I thought I would give it a try. Little did I know, I would become obsessed. Not bad obsessed. It is just a very good book series. I am now on book 3, Eclipse. I’m about half way through. I’d have to say, this is the fastest I’ve ever read any books in my whole life. Wierd. But, when you read, you escape, just like your supposed to do with books or movies. I love it! I recommend reading them. Anyways, so today is Christmas Day. I’m having a pretty lovely day compared to the kind of stressful month I’ve had. I got a new camera this morning from my whole family. I love it!! Now, I’m at Kevin’s just hanging out with him and in a little while, I might go eat with my dad or something. My brother, Tony, will be here tomorrow. Which means I will get to see my little nephew, Ty. I love Ty.
Hope you are all having a wonderful Christmas.
Byeee.
So, I’m in highschool right. It’s been pretty rad so far. But, I can’t believe I will be a SENIOR next year. It’s just so stinkin wierd. It went by so fast and I don’t know what I’m gonna do with my life. :/
Anyways, This week is homecoming week. Pretty exciting, except for the fact that the homecoming game is on Halloween. I don’t mind it so much.. but, Kevin sure does. 
Sorry Kev. But, he’s been a good boyfriend and going to the game with me even though he hates football. Although I hate football as well, I do love highschool football games. I love school spirit and supporting your team. I love being involved with something like that. I do love Del City very much though and I hope we win tomorrow! Hmm.. choir went to UCO for a choir festival on Monday. We did pretty well, I guess. I mean, we were there to get constructive criticism from this guy named Weston Noble. He said nothing bad about our first song whatsoever. However, he did help us out a little bit on our all girls song called “Prayer of the Children”. I do love that song! Anyways, it was pretty fun to go there and here some other choirs. They were all really big and really good. After that, we went to lunch and then on a tour of the UCO campus. It was freezing outside though. That night, I hitched a ride with my buddy Shelbi and went to a show in Bricktown. I met Kevin there, so it was pretty fun.
Ohh man, does kevin make me so happy these days! Not that he didn’t before. But man, He is just a lovely boyfriend and I’m very blessed to have as not only that, but as a best friend too. He accepts me for who I am and he does whatever he can to make me happy. I mean, he just makes me SOOOO stinkin happy.
Byeee. C:
So, lately life has been crazy. Choir has been horrible with the new teacher. I don’t like it much anymore. I have never said that before, it’s wierd. I miss Mrs. Morrison.
Kevin is in San Antonio, So I have been going to school solo lately and it’s wierd. The first couple days, I was like lost without him. I’m fine now, but I can’t wait for him to get back!!!!
Well, tonight it church so yeah.. I’m tired though, I haven’t gotten sleep lately. I think I have Insomnia. :/
Byee.
