Becoming Jordan
Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about who I’d like to be. I’m quite lost thinking about the subject… I just don’t know who I want to become. I mean, I have one passion above all. This passion being singing just doesn’t seem as though it’s ever going to happen. But, honestly, if I had to choose one thing to do for the rest of my life it would be to sing. I really am in love with it… but, am stuck trying to decide if I’m a good enough singer and the fact that it’s nearly impossible for me to write song (I’ve tried so many times) doesn’t exactly feel very encouraging. Maybe I should just get out there and do something…. but, I’m just not sure.
As for the kind of character I’d like to be… I feel like I’m stuck in the “highschool girl” attitude… and I’m so ready to learn how to be a lady. A mature, well prepared, graceful, accomplished woman. I want to be someone that Matt is proud to be with. I don’t want to be a hopelessly emotional teenage girl anymore. I worry too much and let my emotions take over far too many times. I want to learn how to be more understanding, more elegant, just more of a real woman. I’m very ready for it.
