Have you ever?

Posted in Uncategorized on December 3, 2009 by juhoardan

Have you ever waited for something or someone for a long time? Did you think that you would NEVER EVER get that thing or person? I know what you feel like.

But I realized the greatest feeling is knowing that through the waiting and waiting and waiting some more…. I never gave up, and I got that exact person I wanted for so long.

That person doesn’t realize how much I really care about him and how much I’ve cared about him for a long time. I never wanted anyone other than him, but was willing to just be friends and long as he was happy. But, he’s mine now… and I really would not have it any other way.

It’s nice not to have to just sit around waiting for that person to realize you are the one for them and you’ve been right in front of them this whole time. It’s nice not to get overlooked for prettier girls that were all wrong for them. It’s nice to finally get looked at in the eye and feel loved by that person you’ve cared about for so long.

It’s the absolute greatest feeling in the world, and I wouldn’t trade any of it for some average, loser guy.

You’re a keeper. :)

Delight in the Lord.

Posted in Life, Religion on November 30, 2009 by juhoardan

I just wanted to share with the world how incredibly happy I am with my life right now.

I feel like I’m growing up and my life is on the right track.

I also feel incredibly proud to say that my faith in God has never let me down. He has always led me where I need to go, even if I was reluctant to listen. He’s a comforting voice in my head that I need to hear many times, in fact, all the time. I just want you all to know how wonderful it in to know that someone loves you no matter what decisions you make or how many people may hate you or be disappointed with you. Someone that is always there to comfort you and push you in the right direction. God will absolutely never fail you.

I’m so thankful to have a God as loving, gracious, and awesome as my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

Thank you

Posted in Uncategorized on November 20, 2009 by juhoardan

Today I realized I have a pretty great life with some incredible people in it. I think the few readers that may read this should know about all these incredible people. :)

Let’s start with the most important person in my life: God. Yeah, this may seem so cliche and you may be thinking “of course she would say God, but she probably doesn’t mean it.” You’re all wrong. God is my Rock, my Creator, my Savior, my Father, and my Best Friend. He has given me life to use as I wish. He’s an incredibly caring God, and all He wants is for everyone to give their lives to Him just so they will be taken care of. God has given me everything I need in life, and everyone I need in life. He has my entire heart, mind, soul, body, and spirit. Everything I have in me belongs to God and I’m proud to say that.

Now it is time to give thanks to those closest to me: My family. First, my mother. She is the best mom anyone could ever ask for. She does everything she can to take care of us and keep us all happy. She’s a very supportive mom and she believes we can do anything we want to do. She raised me to believe in God and trust in Him completely. She looks for the good in everyone and every situation. My life would never be the same without her, and I wouldn’t want to know how it would be if that was the case. She is incredible. Next up is my father. My dad is a musician, an artist, a writer, and one of the most amazing people I’ve ever known. He has influenced me in many ways, and if you know me, you’d know I’m not lying. He is such a strong person and has taught me how to be that way. I just thank him for being such a rad dad, in fact, the raddest dad ever. (: Time for the brothers and sisters… Julie, my sister. Her and I have gotten much closer lately now that I’m older (since she’s ten years older than me) and I love it. She’s been there for me just to talk to and to hang out with when I really need someone to hang with. She has helped me just talk things out and realize things aren’t such a big deal. I’m truly thankful for that. Tony, my oldest brother. Even though I don’t see him much, because he lives in Kansas, I learn a lot from how he presents himself and how he lives his life. He’s married with two kids now and provides for them flawlessly. He’s very smart in the way he spends money as well as in many other areas. He’s always been there if I’ve ever needed someone to talk to or just someone to laugh with. He is real with me and protects me to the best of his ability. Now for my brother, who is also one of my best friends, Damian. Oh boy, I have so much to say about him. He’s ALWAYS been there for me. To talk to, to hang out with, to make me laugh. Anything and everything. We’ve given each other honest advice countless times and I’ve thought about everything he has said and used it when necessary. Sure, we argue, like any other brother and sister, but we can never stay mad at each other for long. Damian has undoubtedly been one of the most influential people in my life and my life just wouldn’t be the same without him in it. Other people in my family: Lyndsi, my sister-in-law, was meant to be in my family and holidays would really not be as fun if she wasn’t there. Ty and Nathan, my nephews, they’ve really taught me what love is. Those two boys complete me. Oh and Jonah, my dog, (yes, I’m thanking my dog) I’ve had him for eleven years now and don’t know how I survived without seeing him everyday. He’s an angel in disguise. And of course, Chloe, my cat, for being awesome and super cute. (:

Now for my lovely friends… First things first, my best friend, Samantha. She is my siamese twin. My life would never be the same if I didn’t have her. She’s there for me to vent and rant about whatever I need to. She’s there to tell me the truth and the things I need to hear. She’s there to exchange beliefs and thoughts about every subject you could think of. But most of all, she’s there to have fun with when I just need some laughter and happiness in my life. She’s such an incredible friend and I really love her. I couldn’t get by in life without her. Matthew: my boyfriend. Although we’ve only been going out for about two months now, I have much to thank him for. I’ve known him and liked him for years now. He’s showed me what it’s like to really love someone. I know what love is because of him. He makes me want to be a better person. He makes me feel like an incredible person. He’s there when I need some joy in my life. When I need some comfort. If something is bothering me, he listens to what I have to say, and fixes the problem. He’s willing to compromise and I love that. I can be myself around him and he can himself around me. He has made me insanely happy in this short amount of time and oh, how I am looking forward to the future with him in it. <3 Emily: My best friend in Georgia. I haven’t met her face to face. I met her on Xanga about five years ago and we’ve been best friends ever since. She’s such an important part of my life. We lift each other up and give each other advice when we needed it. We are countability partners and remind each other how to live the way God wants us to. She has been there for me more than some of the people I see every day have been. Brandy: I’ve known her forever, but just recently got close last year. She is always there for me to have fun with. We have had some of the most hilarious times and I will never forget them. She makes me feel good about myself and she’s just someone I can be myself around.

These people are insanely important to me and they deserve some recognition.

(I might add more later) :D

Challenge

Posted in Uncategorized on November 19, 2009 by juhoardan

I’ve noticed how many people live like they are the only ones in the world. Like the only person that matters is themselves. Not ever think about others.

Well, I’m challenging whoever reads this to live life differently than those people. Be generous. Be kind. Be courteous. Go out of your way to do something nice for someone. Whether you like them or not. Maybe they will learn how to be that way for someone else. Just be nice. That’s all. It’s not so hard when you really try.

:)

just another reason to wait

Posted in Life on November 19, 2009 by juhoardan

Continuing from the previous post…

Here’s another reason I thought of to at least consider waiting to give yourself away until marriage:

Say you decide you absolutely love this person and you want to give yourself away to this special person. Then, later on, either you or that person decide the relationship isn’t working and you break up. So you get over that and you meet this super awesome, perfect, special person that loves you so much and they have been waiting to give themselves away.. either because that’s just what they believe in or they haven’t met the right person. Well, I feel like that person would feel like something they should have when you get married was given away to someone that shouldn’t have it. But, it can’t be taken back physically.

Now, if someone is reading this and have given themselves away on someone that didn’t deserve it or someone that everything fell apart with.. this is not to make you feel bad in anyway. I’m just trying to prevent that from happening to anyone else.

Just think about it please.

The Dreaded Topic.

Posted in Life on November 18, 2009 by juhoardan

In Yearbook today, we started an intense debate on sex and marriage. So, I figured just so whoever reads this, if anyone does, to share my beliefs and point of view on this subject.

I’m 18 now and I’ve believed these things for as long as I’ve been able to comprehend it all.

I believe that sex is intended for marriage. God made it for that reason. It’s a wedding gift from your Creator. It wasn’t intended for you and someone you are not planning on being with for the rest of your life. It’s a big deal. Something that could bring you another living being. Why would you want to give it to someone that does not deserve it and that you can not see yourself growing old with? Why wouldn’t you just wait so it could be incredibly special and a significant part of your life?

By the way, some of you may think that it is not possible to wait til marriage. But, I very much believe it is possible. If you try hard enough.

“Today, I lost my virginity. Today, I also got married. I waited for sex. He waited for me. MLIG”

That is an entry on mylifeisg.com.

:)

Save yourself for someone that deserves you.
You won’t regret that.

Goals

Posted in Life on November 16, 2009 by juhoardan

I have a goal.. To lose weight and feel good about myself.

I’ve set this goal before.. but, I’ve never been quite this serious about it. I’m tired of just saying stuff about it and not doing it. So, I’m starting now. November 16, 2009. I’ve lost 3 pounds already. But, in 6 weeks, I’m going to be a whole new me. I promise. This is proof and motivation. :)

Wish me luck!

All State.

Posted in Music on November 15, 2009 by juhoardan

Well, I went to Round 2 Auditions today..
They picked really hard cuts (parts of each song that we had to sing)
and everyone around me was insanely good.

But, I did what I could.. didn’t sound super lovely…
and I consider it amazing even getting into round 2. :)

We’ll see what happens.

OMEA All-State Honor Choir.

Posted in Music on November 14, 2009 by juhoardan

Tomorrow I will be going to Round 2 auditions for the All-State Highschool Honor Choir!

I consider it a great honor and totally awesome just getting into the second round.
So, all I can do is sing how I sing and whatever happens, happens. My hopes aren’t too high or too low. So.. yeah.

 

Wish me luck! :D

To be happy, you must think happy..

Posted in Uncategorized on November 13, 2009 by juhoardan

Today is “To Write Love On Her Arms” Day. To Write Love On Her Arms is an organization that fights against Depression, Self-Abuse, and Suicide. So I wrote love on my arm and had my friends write it as well.

Which brings me to my story… I asked this boy in my yearbook class to write love on my arm and he asked why, so I explained what it was for and such. Well, he said “Love just leads to more pain.” Of course, I got defensive about it.. and explained that not all love leads to pain.. he said “wait til your boyfriend breaks up with you and you’ll see!” Well, I really don’t see Matt leaving me.. but, if he did.. sure, it would suck… REALLY BAD.. but I’d find someway to be happy. But, not all love leads to pain.. not all love leads to one leaving the other, and it is sad that people think that way. Very sad. But, love is not the subject here. Happiness is.

Happiness comes from having the right attitude. If you say your day is going to go well, then it will. If you keep that attitude no matter what.. you will automatically find the brightside of the day. If you look at life with a positive perspective, you will find the best things in life and it will keep you positive that everything will be okay in the end. That’s why I say, to be happy, you must think happy. Think your life will be good, even through the bad things and it will. Keep in mind that everything happens for a reason.. you will go through bad things and trials… but, it will all teach you a lesson and help you out later in life. I promise.